12th house in Gemini: ‘Lost’ information

Information in the universe is never lost, it just changes form. Through the lens of light perception, all information flies through the universe, and lives on forever, in some form, or another.

The universe sees all, knows all, and never loses information. All is consciousness, perception, and all is mind. The universe knows the past, present, and future. It knows all the possible manifestations and effects of a choice of action.

To the limited human mind, information is ‘lost’, or ‘gone.’ To the universe, this is untrue. A brain is a powerful tool, but it limits all the information, waves, and energies that we could see if it wasn’t for our limited egoic brain. The universe is akin to a universal mind that can hear all the radio channels that are in the here and now. It can also hear all the radio channels from the past and future. And all the possible combinations of possible future channels and radio waves.

Information is never lost, it just travels somewhere else, or it simply changes form. In my opinion, information is related to the mutable signs (Gemini, Virgo, Sagittarius, and Pisces). Gemini is imperfect information; it is not necessarily factual, truthful, complete, or well defined.

Gemini rules the radio, media, books, small gadgets, or anything that feeds the mind. But Gemini’s information can also include opinions, thoughts, and entertainment, rather than the factual and the informative. Geminis can be entertaining, exciting, curious, adventurous, and swift!

This writing is an intro to my four part series on the mutable signs, and information. Be sure to join me, in my next four writings, explaining how all four of the mutable signs are connected to information, and the process of how information changes, or is organized.

With Gemini in the 12th house, information is lost. For the 12th house rules information ‘that is not seen’. And Gemini rules information. In the 12th house, everything dissolves into one another, everything merges with each other into one thing, or ‘oneness’.

But information, to the universe, is never lost, it just changes form, or merges. To the universe or God, information is never lost, or forgotten. It only seems so to the human eye.

Everything is consciousness: The trees, stars, moon, insects, animals, oceans, people, galaxies, black holes, the dirt on the ground, and more.

I will post more on this ‘mutable signs’ series in the coming weeks. Have a good week, reader.



Dear God letter.


Dear God,

I had a horrible day today. I went to get my haircut today and had to deal

with a gossipy and invasive woman. I was very uncomfortable talking to her and my

thoughts from times I was humiliated back in my school days came back to me.

I was maneuvering my words around this woman and then she dropped one of her

brushes. It was nice seeing the woman bend down to pick her utensil up. It was nice

seeing her humbled. Thank you, God, for taking the time to disapprove of what the

woman was doing.

When I was done getting my haircut, I paid off my money and then a young

woman, roughly in her twenties, smiled at me.

I believe that you give me signs and hints of where I’m at in my life, and that you speak

through other people. Thank you, God, for showing me that I am loved and watched


Have you ever written a letter to God in your own head?

The first Saturn Return of Eckhart Tolle

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Eckhart Tolle is one of the most famous spiritualists in the world today. His book, The Power Of Now helped propel him to fame. Published in 1999, but by 2000, the book was a force to be reckoned with. Over the next decade and a half, the book has now become one of the most popular spiritual books of the new millennium.

Eckhart knows a lot about intuition and ‘stillness’, for he felt there was a second book ready to be born from him. Ready to be written. And finally, in 2005 A New Earth was published. Again, another hit. The man is widely praised, of course, with also many critics and naysayers watching his every move too.

But, how did Eckhart come to this place of success, and more importantly, happiness? His childhood was emotionally unstable, for his situation with his parents didn’t help his mental state. As he grew, he perhaps unconsciously slipped into situational bouts of depression, and anxiety.

He ended up being well educated as he grew up. But his bouts of depression, and anxiety continued despite his academic success. Eckhart admitted to even keeping up with his studies, not out of inspiration, but out of fear.

Then came Eckhart’s spiritual awakening experience. He was 29 years old and saw a splitting of his thoughts, and his ‘real self’. Perhaps Buddhists would call this a spiritual awakening, or enlightenment. After 29 years of struggling with his depression, and his mental stresses, this ‘breaking’ of his mental process from his ‘being’, he had found a profound peace that he had never felt in his 29 years of life.

This breakthrough was an extreme example that the Saturn Return can turn one person’s life upside down. Because thanks to this ‘awakening’ that Eckhart had, he later on went on to write ‘The Power of Now’ and ‘A New Earth.’

For Saturn brings a rich harvest for those who live and walk their integrity. Sometimes after years of bitter tears and suffering.

Eckhart’s situational anxiety and depression had taught Eckhart enough. He no longer needed his anxiety and depression as his teacher. Eckhart teaches that some people need their suffering in order to learn. My guess is sometimes this suffering can last lifetimes.

This is part one of my Eckhart Tolle’s Saturn Return series. The Second one will come soon.

Your North Node, your lifetime

In astrology, the north node is a theme during one’s lifetime, from the time the person is born, until they pass away. It’s usually a struggle for the person to move away from their south node, until they get comfortable with their North Node. In fact, it may be a life long process, and an ongoing lesson for the person incarnated. It may be a struggle, but it doesn’t have to be hell, or tedious, or even perplexing.

In truth, one doesn’t have to fret if they don’t meet the demands of the North Node right away, or even by the time they’re 30. It’s better to think of the North Node as a 80/90 year journey (unless the person dies early), instead of one abrupt, simple stroke.

Take a North node in the 12th house person. This means they have North Node in the 6th house. A 6th house South Node may mean the person spent many of their past lives (at least three??) being ‘on’, being an example for their community, working many jobs, analyzing, discerning, thinking, being obsessed with details, being responsible, etc, etc. Now, with their North Node in the 12th house, they are given many opportunities, to learn about 12th house subject, and to loosen their grip on their 6th house habits.

That’s not to say that they should just throw all of their South Node skills away. The name of ‘the game’ is balance. The 12th house North Node person, must balance over analyzing and driving themselves crazy with over-analysis, or overdoing their 12th house ‘letting go’ process. Of course, overplaying the 12th house ‘surrender’ games can lead to sloppy, muddy, and troublesome waters. How 12th house is that?

Don’t worry too much though, the North Node is a life long theme, not a fleeting moment type of thing. A person will have many chances to honor their North Node themes, and other lessons. Of course, if one believes in karma, or reincarnation, one must wonder if one’s choices will lead to repeating the North Node lesson. Of course, one may spend MORE THAN ONE LIFETIME, working on one subject. Do we get the same North Node for a few lifetimes, say, half a dozen? No one knows, but perhaps we might face, at

-least similar situations, and lessons, if one doesn’t learn it the first time, or second. Anyone reading seen Groundhog Day? If one feels they’ve failed a lesson, they must meditate and reflect. Of course, there is always free will, or one feels they don’t need to learn a lesson. It’s all up to the one incarnated into this 3D hologram, known as Earth. The universe is giving and loving, and will give said incarnated person, many chances.

The 12th house of healing

The 12th house can be a wonderful place. It is a place for healing and it is also a place for escape. It is a place to escape from the public eye and the noise of the world. It is a perfect place for anyone who has been hurt or hit with trauma. The 12th house rules hospitals, prisons, a mother’s womb, being close to God, water, big animals, forgiveness, and more.

It is too ethereal and elusive for this very violent and angry world. It is a place where one is one with the universe, or God. Some find the idea of the 12th house something to be feared or even eerie, yet I find a place of peaceful solitude.

One idea that scares people about the 12th house is that it is also the house of past life karmas. It is a place where many of our seeds/karma from past lives come back to haunt us. This is true, but what is also true is that there is good, or even great karma here also. Just think of the 12th house like the ocean. You cannot force your will against the waves, but you can learn to roll with the punches. This house is a place to be feared for control freaks and people who need to know everything.

An antidote for the anxieties towards this house is for the guest to surrender. Complete and utter surrender. It is because this house is so close to God, that we realize that we have limited control and knowledge about the universe. It is not the kind of surrender where you accept losing a war, or accept getting physically beaten up. It is the kind of surrender where you have done all you could in your power as a human being, and now you give it up to the universe, or God, for this higher power to take care of. It doesn’t mean let go of the steering wheel when you’re driving.

The 12th house also is related to mental hospitals. But mental hospitals, hospitals, and prisons, are places where people can learn to heal, rebuild, and get ready for the new beginning that begins in the 1st house.

It is a place for literal ghosts and spirits. They rest and some utter the pain they had during their earthly life, or incarnation. Be careful of the fog that exists in this house, but you’ll just have to trust that you’ll get help and get a clear path! Just sit back and let the pure waters of the 12th house soothe you, and heal you. What a peaceful place the 12th house can be.

First post and introduction

Hi everybody,

this is my first post for this blog, Crookedwingsflew. It is a site for those who need to heal mentally, and emotionally from any type of trauma. It is also a place for anyone who have had a hard life or hard years in their life. It’s a place to relax and a place for peace. Mostly, it is a place of healing and refuge.

This site includes posts about spirituality, life philosophies, astrology, tarot cards, ideas, life stories, and life in general.

Have fun. However, there are rules, like on any website or blog. I won’t tolerate trolling, or comments that can be interpreted as bigoted or racist.